My breast implant story
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In 2 weeks, Iāll be getting my breast implants removed as well as doing a lift and a full tummy tuck. I plan to chat about it a bit over on my instagram but thought Iād share the full story over here. Spoiler alert: if youāre thinking about implants, this might change your mind!
Ok so letās flash back to 2014. I was recently separated from my first husband, a single mom to 2 young kids, and just trying to put the pieces of my life back together. At the time I was living with family and truly had no idea what I was going to do. I was so vulnerable. Then comes along the man of the hourā¦
Weāll call him, uh, āShwan.ā This man is manipulative, egotistical, insensitive, and omg you guys he is so unattractive! When you hear what I did for this guy you are going to seriously judge me because at the very least I could have bent over backward for someone hot. š So we start dating, and he does his thing. Constantly telling me things like, āYouāre so lucky Iām with you because you have kids and nobody wants that.ā āMy ex-girlfriend was so hot I always felt like I was getting judged when we were walking down the street because she was more attractive than me but I donāt feel like that with you at all.ā and one of my personal favorites, and the reason for this story: āHonestly, I just donāt like small boobs. I canāt see myself marrying someone with small boobs. My ex got implants, you should get them, too.ā
And just like thatā¦ I was at the surgeon having a consultation about new boobies. At that point, I had breastfed 2 kids, lost a lot of weight (in a very ātoo skinnyā disordered type of wayā¦ more on that another day) and my breasts were lowww and flat. Of course there was some part of me that was okay with getting the surgery, or I wouldnāt have done it. But trust meā¦ it was not my idea.
Alright, letās flash forward a bit because thatās enough background on my POS ex. But pleaseā¦ if youāre a single galā¦ heed my warning. Never ever ever ever ever change your body or allow yourself to be manipulated by anyone into thinking youāre not good enough. You are.
So I get these implants- 325cc silicone gel, texured and shaped. Also known as gummy bear implants. Immediately I can tell something is off with the right one. I was having a ton of sharp pains that I wasnāt having on the left and I could feel it moving around. I was told it was just part of the healing process and it would settle and sort itself out. Just about 6 weeks into my healing, the a**hole who made me get these things in the first place as a contingency of marrying him- breaks up with me over a text message. Iām not kidding you guys, I canāt make this stuff up.
Some of the symptoms of breast implant illness I think I experienced:
Fatigue (likeā¦ really fatigued)
Heightened anxiety
Joint pain
Rosacea (honestly not sure if this came from my implantsā¦ but I didnāt have it before and I developed it within 2 years of getting them in)
Other negatives I experienced:
Discomfort on the right side. I have always been able to feel it moving around
Difficulty doing chest exercises
Breast sagging around the implants. I have 4 boobs š
I have a super hard time finding shirts. If it fits around my chest itās too big on my waist- and if it fits my waist itās too tight on my chest.
Really hard time finding bras. 32DDD isnāt an easy size.
General feeling of heaviness in my chest. I just feel big and heavy al the time.
Four years after getting my implants in 2019 I read this news article about a breast implant recall. Sure enough- they were the ones I had. Apparently your risk of a particular type of inflammatory breast cancer goes up due to these implants. So now my anxiety is through the roof. Iām like I NEED to get these things out. But low and behold- I get pregnant š . A few months after having my last baby I call a surgeon about doing a removal but was told your BMI is too high for us to help you, try UCLA breast center. Too fat to even have my implants removed! How ironic considering I absolutely think they were a contributing factor to my weight gain and inability to lose.
I didnāt end up ever going to UCLA, but the second I hit a certain weight after going on a glp-1 I consulted with a local plastic surgeon. I went back and forth between replacing or not replacing my implants. I ultimately decided to not replace them, and just do an explant with lift. I am also getting a full tummy tuck with muscle repair, but that is a story for another post :)
Iām nervous about the recovery, but I have a ton of help. I am so excited to get these things out of my body and move on with my life. I look forward to not having to wear a bra every single day, shopping for tops being easier, and most importantlyā¦ feeling comfortable again.
Iāll update you guys on the recovery process. Love you. xo
