My breast implant story

Wanna chat about my boobs? 😅

In 2 weeks, I’ll be getting my breast implants removed as well as doing a lift and a full tummy tuck. I plan to chat about it a bit over on my instagram but thought I’d share the full story over here. Spoiler alert: if you’re thinking about implants, this might change your mind!

Ok so let’s flash back to 2014. I was recently separated from my first husband, a single mom to 2 young kids, and just trying to put the pieces of my life back together. At the time I was living with family and truly had no idea what I was going to do. I was so vulnerable. Then comes along the man of the hour…

We’ll call him, uh, “Shwan.” This man is manipulative, egotistical, insensitive, and omg you guys he is so unattractive! When you hear what I did for this guy you are going to seriously judge me because at the very least I could have bent over backward for someone hot. 😂 So we start dating, and he does his thing. Constantly telling me things like, “You’re so lucky I’m with you because you have kids and nobody wants that.” “My ex-girlfriend was so hot I always felt like I was getting judged when we were walking down the street because she was more attractive than me but I don’t feel like that with you at all.” and one of my personal favorites, and the reason for this story: “Honestly, I just don’t like small boobs. I can’t see myself marrying someone with small boobs. My ex got implants, you should get them, too.”

And just like that… I was at the surgeon having a consultation about new boobies. At that point, I had breastfed 2 kids, lost a lot of weight (in a very “too skinny” disordered type of way… more on that another day) and my breasts were lowww and flat. Of course there was some part of me that was okay with getting the surgery, or I wouldn’t have done it. But trust me… it was not my idea.

Alright, let’s flash forward a bit because that’s enough background on my POS ex. But please… if you’re a single gal… heed my warning. Never ever ever ever ever change your body or allow yourself to be manipulated by anyone into thinking you’re not good enough. You are.

So I get these implants- 325cc silicone gel, texured and shaped. Also known as gummy bear implants. Immediately I can tell something is off with the right one. I was having a ton of sharp pains that I wasn’t having on the left and I could feel it moving around. I was told it was just part of the healing process and it would settle and sort itself out. Just about 6 weeks into my healing, the a**hole who made me get these things in the first place as a contingency of marrying him- breaks up with me over a text message. I’m not kidding you guys, I can’t make this stuff up.

Some of the symptoms of breast implant illness I think I experienced:

• Fatigue (like… really fatigued)

• Heightened anxiety

• Joint pain

• Rosacea (honestly not sure if this came from my implants… but I didn’t have it before and I developed it within 2 years of getting them in)

Other negatives I experienced:

• Discomfort on the right side. I have always been able to feel it moving around

• Difficulty doing chest exercises

• Breast sagging around the implants. I have 4 boobs 😂

• I have a super hard time finding shirts. If it fits around my chest it’s too big on my waist- and if it fits my waist it’s too tight on my chest.

• Really hard time finding bras. 32DDD isn’t an easy size.

• General feeling of heaviness in my chest. I just feel big and heavy al the time.

Four years after getting my implants in 2019 I read this news article about a breast implant recall. Sure enough- they were the ones I had. Apparently your risk of a particular type of inflammatory breast cancer goes up due to these implants. So now my anxiety is through the roof. I’m like I NEED to get these things out. But low and behold- I get pregnant 😅. A few months after having my last baby I call a surgeon about doing a removal but was told your BMI is too high for us to help you, try UCLA breast center. Too fat to even have my implants removed! How ironic considering I absolutely think they were a contributing factor to my weight gain and inability to lose.

I didn’t end up ever going to UCLA, but the second I hit a certain weight after going on a glp-1 I consulted with a local plastic surgeon. I went back and forth between replacing or not replacing my implants. I ultimately decided to not replace them, and just do an explant with lift. I am also getting a full tummy tuck with muscle repair, but that is a story for another post :)

I’m nervous about the recovery, but I have a ton of help. I am so excited to get these things out of my body and move on with my life. I look forward to not having to wear a bra every single day, shopping for tops being easier, and most importantly… feeling comfortable again.

I’ll update you guys on the recovery process. Love you. xo